I remember when I would blog about Lance Armstrong being a cheater YEARS before he was forced to come out and admit that he was a cheater. For years, I took a beating from heated debates on facebook, social media, and email. Whenever I brought it up, people were instantly defensive about his innocence. It was like I was attacking them, and not Lance Armstrong.
But in a way, to them, I was. Let me explain...
When I am convinced I am right about something, there is very little that can change my mind. I become stubborn in my opinion and if someone questions it, I will defend it like it's my belief system on the line; Because I don't want to be wrong. If I'm wrong, I will feel stupid. If I'm stupid, I'll look bad, and no one will listen to a word I say. -And that very well could be my worst fear in life. So I will defend my opinion or belief because it's my identity of who I am, and what I believe is on the line.
Yet, I'm clear that I don't know everything, and even more importantly, I don't HAVE to know everything. I've learned that it's ok to say, "I don't know" without feeling stupid, ignorant or dumb. Yet, I rarely ever did that. I always looked at it as a sign of weakness from myself. I used to say, "Fake it till ya make it!" and try and strong suit my way through the conversation.
So now take for example the Boston Marathon Bombings. I don't know what the hell is going on. I'm just not in the know of being able to intelligently talk about the circumstances. In fact, whatever information I receive, already has a view placed on it from the person whom I heard it from, and what their view is on it. Seeing that when something happens, we all have a different view on the SAME exact happening. Every person will have a different spin on what they thought they saw. So who is right?
So can I really rely on credible news that tells me just after something has happened that this is the absolute truth? How the hell do I know if these 2 brothers were the only ones involved. They took in Lee Harvey Oswald and to this day, he is historically recorded with assassinating JFK. Yet, we all know that he didn't act alone, despite what the US Government would have you believe.
My opinion is that I don't believe that these 2 brothers acted alone. There are just too many things that don't add up in my hearing of the story, and just like that intuition of Lance Armstrong, I can't prove it, yet I have that same feeling that something stinks.
And who knows, we may never know who did this. Just the same way that we are waiting 4 more years until the JFK files are de-classified so as to make sure that everyone from that era is dead before the "real" truth comes out and alters history again.
So for now, it just works for me to not believe the reporters about 9/11, the Kennedy assassination, The Boston Marathon Bombings just as I didn't believe that Lance Armstrong was clean despite never failing a single drug test in decades of competition. In short, I will wait and not post things like "We got him!" Not until this man has his day in court, and due process gets completed to get a bigger scope of something we know nothing about, yet want to believe.
Just like people wanted to believe that Lance Armstrong was innocent.
And why? Just like John Travolta said in the movie "Swordfish", sometimes, everything is not always as it seems.